My oldest brother was diagnosed with cancer in 2013 and died a year later … It’s difficult to explain how going through pain, grief and heartbreaking disappointment can become a deeper faith, resilience and greater compassion.”

It’s hard to put a life-changing event into a paragraph. It’s difficult to explain how going through pain, grief and heartbreaking disappointment can become a deeper faith, resilience and greater compassion.

Romans 5:3-4 says, “Not only so, but we also glory in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance, perseverance, character; and character, hope.”

Two years ago I wasn’t at that place. I was angry at God, and just hoped I would one day change my mind. My oldest brother was diagnosed with cancer in 2013 and died a year later. I wish I could say I trusted God and believed He would use it for good, but I didn’t and I was deeply angry. I spent the next year and a half struggling with grief, hoping that time passing would heal my hurt and mend my relationship with Jesus. God encouraged me to lean into those feelings of hurt and unravel them while He simultaneously rebuilt a foundation of faith stronger than before. As I stood on the other side of the grief, He revealed His everlasting faithfulness and showed me how He was in fact there with me the entire time, in every circumstance, loving me every second, and revealing His glory throughout.

- ASHLEY

 

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