“I knelt at the altar and sobbed my heart to the Lord in repentance and completely surrendered my life to Him.”
Psalm 107 says, “Let the redeemed of the Lord tell their story. Some sat in darkness, prisoners suffering in iron chains, because they rebelled against God’s commands and despised the plans of the Most High. Then they cried to the Lord in their trouble, and He saved them from their distress. He brought them out of darkness and broke away their chains. Let them give thanks to the Lord for his unfailing love and His wonderful deeds for mankind, for He breaks down gates of bronze and cuts through bars of iron.”
My life before Christ was a life of lies. I believed that as a daughter I was a disappointment because I fell in love with someone who didn't love Jesus. A few years into my relationship it became abusive. I felt that I deserved it because I had been a horrible person. I could not end the relationship and so I felt trapped. I believed I was not worthy of anything better.
One night I cried out to God and told him I couldn't do it on my own anymore. Shortly after, external circumstances ended my unhealthy 5-year relationship. I sought out a new church on Thanksgiving and the Pastor called people to repentance. I remember the Holy Spirit calling me forward and I knelt at the altar and sobbed my heart to the Lord in repentance and completely surrendered my life to Him.
For the first time in my life, I understood His grace. I realized that no matter where I had been, He would always take me back and love me fully. I was unworthy but His grace came and saved me. He began to heal my heart and I experienced freedom from the chains of lies I had believed. The Holy Spirit showed me I was like a golden vase being cleaned and made to shine again. I thank my Lord for redeeming me and breaking me free from the chains that bound me!